Things may never be ideal or perfect for everyone. For me, I try to make the most of everything. I am in the most perfect and ideal spot for me and I cannot be more thankful. I am on the right journey at the right time and it is so much more than what will be given to B/P. I am getting healthier for myself and my family.
I made a goal last week to walk/jog 18 miles. Note, I made a monthly goal at the beginning of October to do a total of 38 miles (see the scaling down page). 18 in one week? That's nuts, but I was determined. I ended yesterday with a total of 18.5 miles for the week!!! Since I weigh in on Wednesday mornings, I went in so excited to step on that scale. Another 3 pound loss!
Anything is possible when we put our mind to it and limit the negative inner dialogue.
What is so cool about all of this is that I was getting bored on the treadmill. Yes, I would watch the news or SportsCenter or anything to keep me going, but it wasn't enough. You know what I have found that is perfect?!? Watching and listening to training courses that help me be a better professional, but more importantly, a better person. If I am not happy with my work and continually fighting to overcome my weaknesses, what is the point?
This morning all of this hit me hard as I was watching a course of self-improvement modeling. This resonated with me and I will leave it with you:
The Power of Thought - Walter Doyle Staples
When you change your thinking, you change your beliefs.
When you change your beliefs, you change your expectations.
When you change your expectations, you change your attitude.
When you change your attitude, you change your behavior.
When you change your behavior, you change your performance.
When you change your performance, you change your life!
What can you do to shift your thoughts and be the next best version of yourself?
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Wednesday, October 23, 2019
Wednesday, September 11, 2019
blessed
A couple of nights ago, I got into bed before 8 as I typically do. I laid there and had a rush of emotions running through my mind. I have never been in such a good place. I am so damned happy. My life is wonderful. I tried to call my parents and thank them for everything they provided growing up, but most importantly instilling in me values that still matter. I hope that one day my children will think of Jacob and me as I do them.
In this moment of overwhelming joy, I also sent a note to B letting her know that all is really good and that I am determined to make this work. Her response, which I saw yesterday morning, was "P.S. You've changed my life." That is not what I was going for here (at least not yet). Obviously, I do want to change her and P's lives, bringing a sweet baby home to love, but I never imagined I would have impact already.
When all is said and done, if everything works or if it doesn't, my hope is that the world is a little brighter because of this journey. I hope that someone thinks about doing something kind for someone else because they want to, not because it is expected. I hope families are brought together out of difficult times to realize there is so much more that life has to offer.
I can tell you - my life is already brighter. And, on an really bright side, my body is lighter. I weighed in today after a week and I am down four pounds from last week. While I am thrilled, I also don't want to lose it too fast because that can be unhealthy too. The work at the gym is paying off!
And at the end of today, like every day, I plan to "keep fucking going."
In this moment of overwhelming joy, I also sent a note to B letting her know that all is really good and that I am determined to make this work. Her response, which I saw yesterday morning, was "P.S. You've changed my life." That is not what I was going for here (at least not yet). Obviously, I do want to change her and P's lives, bringing a sweet baby home to love, but I never imagined I would have impact already.
When all is said and done, if everything works or if it doesn't, my hope is that the world is a little brighter because of this journey. I hope that someone thinks about doing something kind for someone else because they want to, not because it is expected. I hope families are brought together out of difficult times to realize there is so much more that life has to offer.
I can tell you - my life is already brighter. And, on an really bright side, my body is lighter. I weighed in today after a week and I am down four pounds from last week. While I am thrilled, I also don't want to lose it too fast because that can be unhealthy too. The work at the gym is paying off!
And at the end of today, like every day, I plan to "keep fucking going."
Monday, August 26, 2019
sharing life
For years and years, I have wanted to make an impact on others. I work toward this every day through kindness to anyone and everyone, instilling morals and values into my own children to act in the same manner, and looking for ways to better the world around us.
Many moons ago, I watched a few people benefit from organ donation. I immediately tried to sign up with an organ donation organization just to see if I was ever called upon to be a match. However, due to my weight, I was rejected. That was crazy to me. Wouldn't one think that if I was a match and had the opportunity to provide life to someone else, I would do my utmost to lose weight and make it work? Knowing that I simply was unable to register was pretty defeating. I figured that one day, I would try again. Maybe I still will?
While surrogacy may not be a donation of an organ, it is still the opportunity to donate and share life with other individuals. My body will be a loving host to a child for 40 weeks in anticipation of allowing another couple to realize their dreams of parenthood. In this process, I do have weight to lose, but I am more dedicated than ever to make it happen.
I will love this child just as I do my own. I will sing and read to this baby, allow it to be a part of my family for several months and then hopefully be a part of their family (respecting their parents) for the rest of their lives. Hopefully my children will play with this child as it ages. As the world continues to turn, I will have shared life, love, and happiness. This will satisfy me more than I ever could have imagined.
Many moons ago, I watched a few people benefit from organ donation. I immediately tried to sign up with an organ donation organization just to see if I was ever called upon to be a match. However, due to my weight, I was rejected. That was crazy to me. Wouldn't one think that if I was a match and had the opportunity to provide life to someone else, I would do my utmost to lose weight and make it work? Knowing that I simply was unable to register was pretty defeating. I figured that one day, I would try again. Maybe I still will?
While surrogacy may not be a donation of an organ, it is still the opportunity to donate and share life with other individuals. My body will be a loving host to a child for 40 weeks in anticipation of allowing another couple to realize their dreams of parenthood. In this process, I do have weight to lose, but I am more dedicated than ever to make it happen.
I will love this child just as I do my own. I will sing and read to this baby, allow it to be a part of my family for several months and then hopefully be a part of their family (respecting their parents) for the rest of their lives. Hopefully my children will play with this child as it ages. As the world continues to turn, I will have shared life, love, and happiness. This will satisfy me more than I ever could have imagined.
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